Well I think this Dave Chappelle Clip puts it perfectly. 🙂
At the closing of every year I always feel that it’s the end of a chapter that I am happy to end because the start of the year means that I am going to start it off right.
I am sure we all feel the same at some level. We start the year with high hopes that this is the year we stop doing the wrong things that we know we should stop doing, start doing the good things that we know we need to do, and try become a better person. Maybe this is the year we realize we need to work harder to make our dreams come true, or this is the start of the next real chapter of your life from getting married, having a child, to buying your new car.
But, sadly by mid March no matter how well our intentions were we never seem to really change anything.
We just say Fuck it, call it quits, and add those goals for next years list of things you will work on.
There were a lot of things I wanted to change and things I wanted to do that never happen. But, 2014 thought me so much about those around me, the world, and especially about me.
I have come realize that for one reason or another this song became my anthem at the end of the year.
So, what did I learn?
I learned that the way I live with having a Plan A, Plan B, Plan C, and Plan D comes in handy when all your plans start falling apart.
I learned to start doing what makes me happy and stop doing what makes other people happy. Yes, it the short term it might ruffle feathers and people will have to deal on their own how to deal with the change. They will either come to terms that you wont drop everything for them and you might even loose so called friendships over it. But, in the end if you do loose friends over the fact that you are now doing things that make you happy could you have truly called them friends?
But, in the long term your life will be better.
Well, for starters you will be happier because you are doing the things you enjoy and when you do drop everything for those who you truly care about they will truly appreciate it because they know you have no problem saying NO.
My list of things to accomplish in 2014 is still full with nothing crossed off. But, learning from the failures that prevented me from doing them appear to be more valuable to me at this time.
So what does 2015 have in store for me. Not really sure because as much as I claim to see the future the best thing I can do is plan for the different possible versions.
My family will move in 2015. We are moving out of California to a small little town just outside of Portland, Oregon. If we are moving to a Farm, a Fixer upper, or a modern turn key house is still unknown but they are all separate plans.
My creativity has finally began to demand it’s attention. It’s been years since I have done anything creative and if 2015 is suppose to have a theme. You, can expect my theme will be one with a creativity feeling.
But, most importantly I will continue to just do the things that make me happy. From small things like reading to being part of large projects.
One of those projects is to not have a goal of “A Blog a day”. But, there is something I will do and that is Blog More.
I don’t expect contributing to Twitter or Facebook posts in 2015. Instead I will just use my blog as the place people can read about the things that I am doing. I guess the people willing to go out of their way and actually type davemora.com in the address bar to see if I have something new will be those who I actually care about me, our online or IRL friendship, and I know I will value their visit more and their comments if they leave one.
As dark as it sounds. I have always felt that my life will end when I turn 60. That number has been stuck in my head because when I was younger I came to realize a lot of people died or were dying in their 60’s. Sure, as a society the medicine has advance and the way of living has helped increased that number. But, I still feel that 60’s is my end. So, 2015 marks the year I turn 35 and I feel somehow I feel that is a hidden milestone in my own timeline and I am halfway through my cycle.
Maybe that is why I feel 2015 is the year of great change because I feel I have learned from my many mistakes to makes things I want to happen happen.
There is one thing that will never improve or change. My typos on my blogs. Why is that? Because I write and then hit Publish. I never go back and read what I wrote or how I wrote it. It’s a habit I forced my self to have to ensure that my writing is the purest that it can be. So, I don’t go back and start filtering what I was thinking at the time and start editing out things.
It would not be so bad but my own dyslexia sure makes things fun when I using words such as where, were, there, their, are , your, you’re and other word combinations that make you (the reader) go “WTF is he trying to say here?”
So, if this is the first post you are reading of 2015 let me warn you. That my reading is a challenge in itself because of that 🙂